Sunday, March 09, 2008

Head for the Hills!

I have tried and tried today to post some pictures today on this blog but Blogger is not behaving today and it's pissing me off. Picture a lion roaring and looking very mean.These days it doesn't take much. I have been grumpy for a while but it has now moved onto to full blown bitchiness. I'm so tired of a few things and I hate this time of year. Now usually I'm all about the anticipation of things. I'll use Christmas as an example. The few weeks leading up to it are better than the actual day to me. Friday is my favorite day of the week because I'm anticipating the weekend. My most favorite time of year is springtime but...I HATE this time of the year even though it's leading up to spring. This is one anticipation I don't like. That and waiting for the ketchup to come out of the bottle. I don't know if you remember the commercial with Heinz ketchup and Carly Simon.

Things that are making me bitchy

I can't stand anymore winter. I can deal with it up through most of February but after awhile the cold, the snow,the wind, it wears me down. The dreariness of it is awful, it's like all of the color has been leached out of the world. Everything is grey from the road salt, the snow, the road, your car and the sky are the same shade of grey.

My health has sucked this winter. I know I've complained about this on here before but I'm going to do it again. Since October I have been sick more than I've been healthy. I'll catch something and have it for a few weeks then healthy for a week. New germs come along and I'm sick again for a few weeks. Sometimes sick enough to be down in the bed other times sick enough to just feel miserable. I just got over another cold but am now suffering from sinus headaches that are killing my eyes. My eyes are tired, sore and some days feel like they're going to pop out of my head. How's that for a visual. A few times it's been bad enough to make me feel sick to my stomach. Sort of like a red hot skewer poking into my brain. Let me tell you, when you feel like this it is very hard to work with 5 year olds. As much as I love them it doesn't take much to make me crazy. Of course I have to keep that inside but when I get home; bitchy.

I feel I've aged more this winter. My knees have not been good, especially the right one. I have to wear my brace everyday. While the brace doesn't take the pain away it makes my knee feel better in the sense that it supports it and makes it feel more stable. It doesn't feel like it's going to collapse. When I don't wear it I pay for it with more pain and my knee gets tired.This in turn makes other joints hurt like my ankle, hip and back. As it is, when I walk I favor the right leg. I like to wear skirts with stocking or tights but don't like the brace showing so it's been pants all winter.
Ladies, you know we have those times when we just don't look good. I'm not liking my hair. My skin is so pale. My eyes are not bright. Wrinkles seem like they're popping up over night. I just feel and look dull.
I'm just not myself and I've struggled with this feeling before. I don't like it and I don't want to go there again. Please.

So you can see why I've gone from being cranky once in a while to down right bitchy. Sometimes I just have to go up to the bedroom and close the door.
I do tend to keep a lot inside but have been letting it fly lately. My poor family.
Thanks for reading this if you stayed with it til the end.
I feel better now.


Kitten Herder said...

I hear you. I'm about to lose my patience with the season. I nearly committed a boatload of money to escape to someplace warm for a couple of measly days. I knew it wouldn't be enough, and that I'd feel guilty for the expense. So, I talked myself out of it (at least until the next big dump of snow).

Venting is good though. So, let it out when you can't stand it any more.

Sandi said...

oh my..I hear you, too.
I am fighting the "bitch-ees" too!

Once spring FINALLY gets here.. you will feel better. your skin will have a healthy glow and your hair will shine again. :)

sometimes I have to go to my room and shut the door too..I get so bitchy I could bite myself! lol

Craze said...

I'm thinking a little bit of sunshine and spring weather would do us all some good. Hope you feel better soon.