I was married previously many, many years ago. It wasn't a good marriage and I knew when I did it that I was making a mistake. We were very young. I can tell you that on our honeymoon he threw one of our suitcases at me. We had our problems and one of them being that we were both strong willed and stubborn. Soon our disagreements escalated into physical fights. I'm the type that will go down swinging. I hit back when I could. He was 6'4" 225 lbs. I am 5'4"and if you think I'm telling you my weight, forget it. I had many bruises and fat lips but never any broken bones. There were times when I thought we would kill each other. I realized that he would get any weapon away from me and use it himself as well as just the feeling that I could even think about doing that. It scared me terribly. We decided that this marriage had to end and it did after just three years. Funny thing was, once that decision was made, we got along fine. We had no children and at the time I thought if I did get pregnant it would be the worse thing ever. Another huge signal that this was not right. I refer this time period as my past life. Today I'm in my 25th year of marriage to Sean.

Where I'm going with this is here. In light of the man who was arrested for shooting and killing his wife and three children in their SUV in Illinois and the man in Ohio that allegedly killed his mistress and full term unborn baby; if the problems in your life are that bad and you can't walk away; kill yourself, not your wife, lover or children for God's sake. I was shocked to find out that the leading cause of death among pregnant women is homicide.

I don't really get along with computers and don't know how to link to something with one word so I have to type out the whole address. If someone can drop me a note and tell me how that would be wonderful. Read the above stories here:
www.examiner.com/a-796887~police_Charge_Husband_in_Family_s-Death.html and here
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070624/ap_on_re_us/missing_woman_123

On another note, in a post dated May 5 I wrote about snitching. A 38 year old woman in Arizona was branded on her face with the word snitch. This brand (yes, what they do to cattle) is 4-6 inches long on her left cheek from lip to earlobe. http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070623/ap_on_re_us/woman_branded

As I read back on today's post I see that it's very depressing. The violence in the world against women and humanity in general is appalling. I'm going to have to stop reading the news.