Photos by Anne Geddes
While chatting with my favorite friend last night the subject of having a baby in the house came up and the memories that come along with that.

Both of my babies are almost grown, ages 20 and a half and almost 17 so it's been a long time since there was a baby in my house. How I miss that. Well, honestly, not all of it. I miss the smell of a baby, a clean one that is, not a stinky one. I would go off to work and if I was lucky, my son's scent would linger on shoulder and I could smell him all day.




I loved the infant stage as my number one son just seemed to eat and sleep. I remember sitting in the recliner with him sleeping on my shoulder all snuggled into my neck. Heaven.

But then I loved the stage when they start to learn all sorts of new tricks, rolling over, sitting up by themselves, reaching for things (especially for me) and laughing. How can you not break out in a big grin when you hear a baby laugh?

Then I couldn't wait for my oldest to walk. What was I thinking? I missed the days when I could put him in one spot and he'd stay there. Oh, and then talking, couldn't wait for the day when he said that wondrous, magic word, "mommy". Is there any word sweeter than that? Until you've heard it 500 times in a day.

I remember the days when I would finally get to go to bed and I'd ask myself, "did I say anything other than "no" today?" Then I'd have to get back up and go in for one more touch of a little face.

What I loved was the wonder that I saw in my children's eyes. The everyday things that we take for granted but were new and exciting for them. Your children are all of your hopes and dreams wrapped up in a little bundle. I sometimes wonder how a couple could not want to have children and while I certainly respect their decision I can't help but feel they are missing something in their lives. Some people are not cut out to be parents and realize that. When you become a parent you look at the world differently. Things that you didn't notice or pay attention to suddenly come into focus. Sometimes the world is a kind and amazing place other times a dangerous and scary place.

While my house was once a home filled with whirling activity, noisy toys, crying, lost binkies, it's now filled with the sounds of computer keys clacking away with homework or more likely AIM, video games and voices that don't sound like children but young men.

Let me introduce you to our television. I love my television. It's a Sony Wega Trinitron 34" We bought it a few years ago when our 28" Sony bit the dust.

We debated going the HD route or not. The high def models were just coming out and were pretty expensive. We decided to spend all our tax refund on it since our former Sony lasted 15 years. At that time there were maybe 1 or 2 channels that broadcast in high definition.

Finally the high-def decision is paying off. More and more channels are broadcasting in high-def. High-def is wonderful and I hate to watch programs that aren't in HD. The only bad part is no more television in bed. I have to stay up and watch in the living room if I want the HD.

We hated the stand that the TV came with so Sean designed and built this entertainment center himself. It's in two pieces and is built around the stand. The TV weighs a ton. Ain't no one gonna steal this baby.

(Have had that happen once)

On another note, if Sanjaya doesn't get his butt voted off of Idol this week, I swear I can't watch it anymore. The hair alone is enough to kick him off.

I Look Rather Green Today

Everyone has some kind of minor illness that they hate to have more than any other. Take Sean, he absolutely hates to have a sore throat. He's amazed when I have one and eat crackers and drink fizzy pop. Now me on the other hand, I hate any kind of illness that requires me to be near a bathroom.

Today I'm home sick because my stomach did not want to go to school. Not only that, it's seriously trying to talk my intestines into playing along with it's little game. I'm sure I have a student to thank for this little bug. Let me think, who was absent last week? I'll spare you any more details, you probably didn't want to know this much.

Life or Death

Meet Knut, a polar bear cub born in December in the Berlin Zoo. When he was born, his mother wanted nothing to do with him or his brother who later died. She abandoned them. The zoo took over the care of the surviving cub, bottle feeding him every 4 hours. Knut is now 3 months old and weighs 19 lbs. I'm a sucker for cute, little cuddly things. I prefer my men cuddly rather than hard-bodied. It's hard to believe that some animal activists are calling for his death.

Yes, you read that right. Animal activist, Frank Albrecht has lobbied for the killing citing that "he will grow up with a behavioral disorder for the rest of his life." Another activist, Wolfram Graf-Rudolf is quoted, "I don't consider it appropriate for the species that the little polar bear is being raised on a bottle. The animal will be fixated on his keeper and not be a "real" polar bear." I will give this guy credit, he does say that it's too late to kill him now.

Of course, I'm not an animal expert by any stretch of the imagination but I say give this poor bear a chance. I really don't think he will have any emotional or behavioral issues. He won't become domesticated. I just hope that in the end he won't harm his handler. He will grow into a dangerous predator and will have polar bear behavior. Knut should be treated as such. I'm sure the zoo will not turn him into a "pet" and respect Knut for what he is, a man eater if given the chance. Knut will live to see another day as the zoo has decided his life will be spared.

The way things are in the world with Iraq and all the other hot spots, this whole polar bear thing is small potatoes but people are upset about it. I agree that it just seems heartless and cruel for these animal lovers and activists to call for Knut's death.

I'm Smiling

Welcome Spring!! Oh, how I've missed you! You know Old Man Winter and I don't get along. He started out being very nice in November, December and the beginning of January. I thought he was a changed man. I would have sworn I had moved to Virginia. But, and it's a big but, his mild manner came to an end in mid January when all hell broke loose! I have no idea what pissed him off but between him and Canada, they bitch slapped us hard.






Now you may wonder, "what does she have against Canada?" Absolutely nothing. We visit Canada every year. My grandmother and her family were born in Canada. It is a beautiful country with friendly people. I love Canada. Except when it sends us their cold, arctic air. Then I'm not so much in love with them.

But back to that bastard, Old Man Winter. In February he dumped 2 feet of snow on us for Valentines Day. Is that any way to treat a lady? He caused ice dams on our roof which in turn caused a leaky ceiling in the living room and foyer. I'm not talking drip, drip, drip. I'm talking about driiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiip, get a bucket! I will say this though, after a 3 year drought of no snow days off from school, we had two this year! So thanks for that Old Man. I'd better start being nice to him. I know he's not finished with us yet. March and April can be cruel months in the North. We once had snow on Mother's Day!



I know that under the 8 inches of snow we still have on the ground, that the daffodils and crocus are beginning to peek through the dirt. I'm very pleased that day light savings came 3 weeks early. More sunshine when we get it.

Spring officially starts at 8:07 pm est tonight and I'm ready. Unfortunately, Mr. Winter is still having his way with us. It's cold today, only in the lower 20's but it's sunny and will warm up later in the week.

Now I can start to come out of hibernation. What I love about spring is the rebirth of the Earth. The trees that were so stark and naked begin to swell up with buds and then explode with bright green leaves. Sometimes overnight. The first trees to leaf out are the weeping willows. There's one near our house and I watch that tree from a distance, like a hawk, waiting for it to get that yellowish-green haze.











Flowers are one of my favorite things on Earth. They're such a delight for the senses. The colors, shapes, scents and textures are just gorgeous. If you've never done it before, as the saying goes, "stop and smell the roses", look at the details. You'll see what I mean.

It's not just the trees and flowers, it's the little animals; squirrels, chipmunks, migrating birds back to their summer home and yes, even insects. You know how I feel about them. A soft breeze with the smell of damp dirt. Sleeping with the window open. The smiling, happy faces. Everyone seems to be in a better mood. I know I will be.

I'll leave you with the words of George Harrison.

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darlin' it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darlin' it feels like years since it's been clear
Her comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darlin' the smiles returning to their faces
Little darlin' it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuUhZxkr194

Our number one son is in his third year of nursing school. He attends a university with one of the best nursing programs and that has the highest percentage of male students, 16%. He started out in pre-med, doing one year of it. Just before returning for his second year he told me that he decided to go into nursing. At first I thought he was kidding me. Then he started telling me why.

Seems that he had been giving being a doctor much thought. He considered how much time and sacrifice it was going to take, how long it would be before he would be able to have a private practice and how much the malpractice insurance would be. He thought about how little time he would have with each patient as a doctor. He was aware of how some people may perceive him. Possibly as someone who couldn't hack med school or that nursing is for women. Everyone has been very supportive of him. Since the Viet Nam war there are many more males in nursing than ever before. I couldn't be prouder of him.

After thinking it over he decided that nursing would be for him. He is planning on becoming a nurse practitioner which is six years of school or maybe a nurse anaesthetist. Nursing is hard work but he's got what it takes.

A local hospital has a summer nurse residency program. You are assigned to a nurse and work with them, whatever their shift is. It is very competitive to get into, the requirements are high and the educational value is huge. They are interviewing now, but you have until April 3 to get your application in. There are 24 job openings and so far 73 applicants with interviews continuing. Number one son had his interview Friday, March 4. They called him on Monday, March 7. He was offered a job and will be working in the cardiac care unit. Did I say I couldn't be prouder?

I'm sorry this is such a bragging post but I love him so much it makes my heart hurt sometimes.

Going South?

Every winter I say that I am moving South in a few years. The older I get, the more I hate the cold and snow.














I would like to live someplace that receives more sunshine than I get here. Somewhere that is green throughout the year. I don't like naked trees and here in the North, the trees are naked six months of the year.

But, I don't do well in extream heat. I melt. I like it between 75 to 80 degrees and not too humid.

I'm afraid of wind so a location that is frequented by tornados and hurricanes is out.





Then my father sends me pictures and news stories of weird things that happen in Florida. (My parents live there 5 months of the year)
Maybe this is their way of keeping me up North.

I don't want to worry about some rogue alligator snacking on my dog or ringing my doorbell.










Or snakes finding their way into my computer. I have enough computer trouble without that.





























Not to mention the insect life down South. I am not a bug person. Yes, I realize the world needs insects in it. I just don't want them up close and personal in my world.

The Red Widow, a native of Florida as well as the Florida Bark Scorpion just make me cringe. If I lived down there, they would find me. I'm a magnet for that kind of stuff. I'm allergic to cats. If I'm at someone's home that has one, it loves me. It wants to be on my lap or around my legs.

I don't mind the little lizards that sun themselves on the patio or at the pool and scamper away when you go near them. They look sort of cute but do they get in your house? If so, that's one less lizard in the world.








When I reread this post it seems like maybe the South is not for me after all. Up here all I have to worry about is 2 feet at a time of lake effect snow off of one of the Great Lakes, the occasional ice storm, power outages, okay, I've lived with that all my life. We don't have tornados, hurricanes, scorpions, alligators, palmetto bugs etc.

It's a great place to visit but do I really want to live there??

It's coming!!

I'm seeing and hearing some signs.

Seven days.

Do Gentlemen Prefer Blondes?

Despite all the blonde jokes, for many years I wanted to be a blonde. My two younger sisters are blondes. I was always the dark horse.

It seemed to me that all the beautiful women were blonde. The boys liked blondes. I wanted to be blonde.

Several years ago, well maybe more like 17 years ago, I finally went blonde.

For about 4 months. I hated it.

I discovered that blondes do get more attention. Now if you know me, you know that I don't really enjoy the attention being on me. Bridal showers, wedding and baby showers were hard for me being the center of attention. I like to sit back and observe but will speak my mind when I feel the need.

When being blonde brought me more attention,(more guys looked) it wasn't all that great. My skin tone isn't right for light hair. A fair skinned, freckled, green eyed blonde looked odd to me. I knew I wouldn't stay blonde for long. The event that made up my mind to go back to dark was a guy at work. Said man came up to me and said, "I bet you're not a true blonde and I'd love to find out." I looked at him for a minute, not sure where he was going, he worked with me, he knew I wasn't a true blonde. I must have looked quizzical because then he said, "all of your hair isn't blonde." I was speechless. Why would he say that? This was in the days before sexual harrassement policies were established and I worked for a utility company that was 80% male.

I didn't know how to respond, I just walked away. That weekend I went back to dark , auburn hair. It's me.

Another man at the same company came up behind me while I was sitting at my desk and preceeded to rub his hard self up against my back. I stiffened right up and said, "Do not ever do that to me again." I was my natural color at this time. These were not men that I was friends with, just work aquantances. The most unbelieveable thing was that my father worked for the same company and they both knew him. Not only that but Sean worked there, still does and they knew him as well. What were they thinking? I've never told my father about these incidents. Why upset him? He would've been furious that they spoke like that to his little girl. Not only that but Sean worked there and still does. I didn't tell him for many years. It wasn't worth upsetting him either. I didn't need him to defend me. It just amazed me that they thought that was okay.

Blonde Hair Facts:

Only 2% of the worlds blondes are naturally blonde.

Finland has the most natural blondes.

Blondes have the thinnest hair strands.

Blondes have the most strands of hair.

Blondes go gray faster.

My sisters have more gray hair than me. I have my revenge.

Famous Blondes:

Grace Kelly

Marilyn Monroe

Claudia Schiffer

Sharon Stone

Goldie Hawn

Pamela Anderson

Princess Diana

Signs, Signs, Everywhere A Sign

I wasn't raised in a religious home. My parents taught me everything I needed to know about living a good life and how to treat people. I'm not saying that I don't believe in a surpreme being, it's just that I didn't get a formal education in the whole story. I'm one that sometimes has a hard time accepting things on blind faith. Because someone tells me what to believe, does that make it true? Is there really heaven and hell? Has anyone come back and said, "oh yeah, it's the best place ever or, it's extreamly hot there"? I know that there are people that have "come back" from the dead and said they've seen it and their dearly departed relatives. Science has an explaination for that but I don't buy it. I'd like to think that there is a heaven and I'm going to it, even if I'm not a chuch person. People I know will be waiting for me when I get there. I hope my dogs are there too.


I can't debate religion at all. I know very little about it. I'm out of luck when I watch Jeopardy and one of the catagories is "The Bible".

What I do believe is that there are little signs in your life that if your mind is open enough, you will see them. For me, everything happens for a reason, there is fate involved. I don't really subscribe to coincidences. The best way I can think to describe it is in the movie "Signs". You may think, "oh, here she goes, gets her thoughts from a movie", not so, I've always thought that way. Now in that movie there were a lot of signs and they all came together in the end. It's not that easy in real life. I tell my kids that when I'm gone, I'm going to come back and give them a sign. I don't know what it will be but I will do it because I think it's been done. The person on Earth just doesn't know what to look for or isn't open to it.

When I was a young girl, around 16, I was home alone one afternoon and down in the basement for something. All of a sudden I heard my name called, loudly, clear as a bell. It was a female voice, I didn't recognize it. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Several years later a friend's grandfather had died in their house. The day of the funeral I volunteered to stay at the house, get the table and food ready for after. I was in the kitchen when I noticed the 2 dogs looking into the other room. They were looking up and had their heads cocked like dogs do when they are looking and listening to you. They stood like that for a full minute. I thought maybe someone had left the church early, came to the house and I didn't hear or see them come in. I looked out into the room and there was no one there. Those dogs were looking and listening to someone.
Do you ever get a strong feeling that someone is watching you and no one is around? Well maybe someone is.

Space. The Final Frontier?

Some may think that space is the final frontier.

I think that the final frontier is really beneath the ocean. We know many things about outer space. We've been to the moon, landed a rover on Mars, sent probes to Jupiter, launched satellites, have people living on a space station,

taken Pluto's status as a planet away and more I'm sure I don't know about. In 1994 while visiting Florida, while I didn't see the space shuttle launch, I did see it up in the sky after launch. You could see the shuttle with the flames coming out of the rockets and the big, wide contrail it left. To this day I have never seen a more impressive sight in person.

I'm fascinated by sea life. Any chance I get I watch documentaries about life under water. The deeper they go, the more I like it. You'd be amazed at what's down there. There are some very scary creatures living in the ocean. Take for example the angler fish and the viper fish. Nothing I'd want to see up close and personal.

There are beautiful creatures in the sea also and while I love to see these sea animals on TV, there is no way I'm going under water to see them. I have this somewhat irrational fear of being underwater, even in a pool. I'll wade in the waves at the beach but not go out much further than my knees. The last time I was out in the waves was about 15 years ago in Cape Cod. I got beaten up by a big one and when I came to the surface my bathing suit top was off. There I was staring my father's friend in the face. He got an eye full but never said anything about it. Thank you Gordon.

When I read about the colossal squid caught off the shores of New Zealand estimated to weigh 900 lbs and 39 feet long it just reaffirmed my fear of being underwater. Since they live in deep water, one needn't be afraid of meeting one. They can descend to 6,500 ft.

I don't know if a colassal squid is the same as a giant squid. I do know that the giant squid is the favorite meal of the sperm whale. My elderly friend, Mrs. R. who died several years ago, asked me what I would like from her. I asked for her sperm whale tooth. Her great uncle was a whaler out of Nova Scotia about 150 years ago. They would go out hunting whales and be at sea for sometimes 2 years. He kept this sperm whale tooth and gave it to her. Now it's one of my prized possessions.

American Idol

I admit it. I love American Idol. I've never phoned in to vote but if they had online voting, I'd do that. I voted online for Emmitt Smith on Dancing With the Stars every chance I got. Do I watch too much television?



Here is my prediction for the winner of American Idol:

Lakisha Jones, 27

LaKisha is one of those singers that seem to become a different person when they sing. She's as a soft spoken, humble, church singing, family loving, hard working single mother that understands that her daughter is her top priority. She has an amazing voice and really belts it out Aretha Franklin style.Simon gives her high accolades but I'm afraid that will hurt her or jinx her in the long run. Maybe I'll be voting this season.

Bald is Beautiful, If You're A Guy

Let me go on record that I happen to think that bald guys are handsome. I don't know why. The most handsome bald man is Emmitt Smith, Andre Aggasi, Michael Jordan, Bruce Willis,Yul Brenner, Patrick Stewart, Sean Connery, Samual L. Jackson (sometimes bald), The Rock, Billy Zane, and my Number One Son just to mention a few. I'm sure there are many more baldies, this is who I can think of off the top of my head. (no pun intended)

There are even some ladies that can pull off the bald look. Sigourney Weaver in Alien 3, Natalie Portman in a Star Wars movie and Demi Moore in G. I. Jane.

One that does not look good bald is Britney Spears. Between driving with her baby on her lap, partying all over town with professional sleaze, Paris Hilton, showing her nether regions with not wearing any underwear and now shaving her head, she is well on her way to a very public meltdown. I have no idea as to why she would shave her head but is anyone really that surprised? Looks like Kevin may get those boys after all. She needs to go and hide under a rock for a few months and stop demanding that all pay attention to her. I hate to see her go off the deep end like this but she's bringing it on herself. I never thought that I'd write about Brit but she's forcing me do it.

It looks like I'm not the only living creature waiting for spring. Sean and I stopped at one of our favorite summertime spots last week and oh, was it freezing. When it gets super cold like this I worry and wonder about all of the animals. How do they stay warm? Take these seagulls floating about on an iceberg, how can their little webbed feet not be frozen? I'm sure if they had a taste of where their cousins live down south, they'd head there next winter.






Seagulls can be a pain in the neck with the noise and the aggressivness they show if food is around. They're a beautiful bird though with the soft grey, white and black feathers.I hate when a bunch fly over my head. I can only think, "please don't poop on me". I've had it happen, right on my shoulder. Yuk.







What's worse is pelican poop (PP). One got my father down in Florida. I'm used to little birds up north like cardinals, robins, gold finches, song birds but pelican droppings are huge. If you get hit with PP, you know it. Of course it was pretty funny and I tried not to laugh. (I wasn't successful) I'm sure I wouldn't have seen the humor in it if I was the victim. Good thing my dad is bald and he could just wash it off.






Cody after our Valentine's Day snowstorm. He looks so cute but when he comes inside he leaves little snowballs everywhere which in turn melt, which then I step in and get wet socks.













While it is winter here in the northern United States, it's not winter in other parts of the world. Perhaps I need to move to the southern hemisphere. A friend sent me some lovely pictures from their garden that are blooming now. It cheered me up, seeing this glimpse of summer and reminded me that our time will come in a few months. I especially loved this dahlia. It reminds me of fireworks, another thing I enjoy in the summer.



I'm sure I've bored you to death with my complaining about the weather so I'm done with it. I won't do it anymore. At least I'll try not to.